things I wasted my money on while trying to figure out my spirituality

things I wasted my money on while trying to figure out my spirituality

Confession time: I am really, really effing awful with money. I don’t know what happens – one day my paycheck is there and the next, poof! Gone. On all the stupid things they tell you to watch out for, too, like buying lunch every day or getting Starbucks. That stuff really does add up!

I was thinking about that today when I was driving home, and I was thinking about how I hadn’t written my Monday blog post yet (whoops) when I realized that over the years I have wasted a damned lot of money in the name of spirituality. I think when I was first starting out on my spiritual path, I had this idea that I could fake it till I made it – that is, if I bought the things and had the knowledge that all the soulful babes I followed on Tumblr had, the rest would fall into place. Kind of like how I keep buying cute workout clothes in the hopes it will magically transform me into one of those hot yoga babes… whoops.

In a way, I don’t think that mindset was a total waste – I do think that having a little collection of spiritual items that make me happy has gone a long way towards helping me want to do the soul work needed to call myself “spiritual.” But the key word there is little – and my collection is pretty sizeable.

I wondered how much money I could have saved over time if I had only bought the items that I really feel like I need – the ones that I use all the time and that bring me joy. I added up the totals of the things I never use or that didn’t serve me and it was kind of a doozy. Keep in mind, these purchases were all made over the course of several years and mainly while I didn’t have to pay rent, but still – it kills me to think of how much money I sort of flushed down the drain because I wasn’t smart about my purchases. I’m linking to each thing so you can see what I’m talking about and possibly take the plunge if it seems right for you, but the point is to not spend money on stuff you don’t need, capisce? Don’t be like me – here are the 4 things I wish I hadn’t spent so much money on in the name of ~finding myself.~

things I wasted my money on while trying to figure out my spirituality

1. Tarot and oracle decks

Okay, this one pains me to admit because I really love my deck collection. Once the tarot bug bit me I went on a binge, needing every deck that “called out to me” (aka all the ones I thought looked pretty on the Internet.) While my decks are lovely and I adore using them, to be honest I can’t use any of them as much as they deserve because I just have too many. I have a few favorites that I come back to time and time again and that’s really about it. The prices listed below are the ones I can currently find, since I really don’t remember how much I paid for them at the time!

Decks I just never connected with or didn’t need: 

The Cosmos Tarot and Oracle (which I’ve since sold) $35

The Lumina Tarot (also sold) ~$75 after shipping

The Wild Unknown Second Edition (let’s be honest, I didn’t need the first AND second) ~$60 with shipping

The Nomad Tarot $40

The Shadowscapes Tarot $17

Paulina Tarot $17 (gave this one away)

The Victorian Fairy Tarot (I actually adore this deck, but I never use it for some reason) $24

The Oracle of Mermaids $20 (sold)

Myths and Mermaids: Oracle of the Water $20 (given away)

Art Noveau Oracle $10 (given away)

Witchlings $15

Total: $333

2. Books

Another one that pains me to admit. I am a BOOK FIEND. I have four bookshelves in my tiny apartment all packed with books. I love books. I love the way they feel and the way they smell, and how you can read them in the bath with a glass of wine and not worry about dropping it in and killing it forever. (I mean, okay, you actually do have to worry about that, but not the same way as with an e-reader.) But one thing I’ve learned is that buying books does not automatically make you an expert in what they’re about – you have to actually read them, too, which takes time. That, and the fact that even if you DO read a book, that doesn’t mean the information will be valuable to you. Sometimes it’s a bunch of hooey.

Don’t get me wrong – maybe you read these books and loved them! Maybe they work for you and that’s awesome. But for me, they no longer fit the spiritual path I decided to pursue, and some of them had a lot of cultural appropriation and misinformation (looking at you, Silver Ravenwolf) and so it was kind of a waste of money to get them in hard copy when a cheaper, digital version would have sufficed. Also, sometimes a Google search gives you all the information you actually want and you don’t need a book at all.

Books I regret purchasing: 

The Solitary Witch $20

Hedgewitch $15

The Complete Herbs Sourcebook (I like having this because it makes me feel witchy but I’ve honestly never read it) $12

The New Herb Bible (at least this one was on clearance at B&N) $6

The Ultimate Guide to Herbs (who did I really think I was with all this herb stuff?? I can’t even find this one online anymore) $15

Total: $68

3. Journals

Okay, I’ve been guilty of buying too many journals for my entire life, but especially when it comes to journals for spiritual purposes. God forbid I write about my daily tarot draw in a mere notebook – it has to be a hardcover journal with gold-embossed pages and a ribbon bookmark! And I need another one of those for my astrology notes! And another one for my regular notes! And one for my dream journal! And then a new one because really it was kind of intimidating to write in this really fancy one after all, but I’m just gonna keep it anyway because it looks pretty… See where I’m going with this?

There are really only two in particular that I bought and don’t use for anything, so I’m gonna say this was a total of $30. Which isn’t TOO bad, but like, come on Dana. Get it together here.

things I wasted my money on while trying to figure out my spirituality

4. Crystals

Ah, crystals. I mean honestly who DOESN’T want to be surrounded by pretty crystals all the time? It seems like everyone and their mother has a crystal collection, and I decided I needed one, too. Which is fine on the surface – I mean, crystals are really pretty, and they double as decor so it’s not a total waste. But I mean I went CRAZY. Getting tipsy on wine and ordering crystals on the Internet was my Friday night routine for a while (along with reading books in the bath, of course.) But between drunkenly ordering a pound of rose quartz wholesale from Amazon (why????) and not researching sellers beforehand only to have my crystals arrive broken in the mail, some of my purchases were a little ill-advised. Like with tarot decks, there are only a few crystals I use regularly and I would have been perfectly happy if that was the extent of my collection. All in all, I spent about $40 on crystals that I don’t even use, which again, isn’t too bad – but it all adds up, my friend.

All in all, I’ve spent $468 on things I don’t need. Yowza! I wish I could have that nonsense back to use for stuff I DO need (or at least stuff I think I need now and will come to regret later down the line. #Yolo. Kidding.)

What all this taught me: Don’t make impulse purchases. I mean it. If you’ve had more than a sip of wine, close the laptop. Amazon will still be there in the morning, I promise you. Also, EBOOKS ARE YOUR FRIEND. Really think about what you need in hard copy and what you can live with just looking up on the Internet. I could easily have learned about herbs in my area if I really wanted with just a quick Google search; my books about herbs have never been used.

Finally, and most importantly, spirituality is free. While mala beads look gorgeous on Instagram and giant crystal collections might have you drooling, at the end of the day those things aren’t going to fill you up inside. Spirituality comes from connecting with yourself and opening your mind. It’s about learning new things, but also acting on what you’ve learned. Most of all, it’s about living consciously – something I’m seriously trying to incorporate into my budgeting strategies. If you’re eyeing a fluorite wand or you really feel like you want a hard copy of a book you saw, go for it. But remember that you have to do the work, too. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to go cry into some (super cheap) ice cream.

Have you purchased anything you regret?

P.S. If you want some FREE ways to incorporate spirituality into your life, check out 8 Little Ways to Be More Spiritual!

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14 thoughts on “things I wasted my money on while trying to figure out my spirituality

  1. Giiirl I'm exactlyyy the same way lol! I definitely have a shopping problem and "shiny object syndrome" where once I find out about something new, I just want it! I also bought a shit ton of books, but more on the witchy, scholarly side and they're pretty rich and dense and idk wtf I bought them cuz I haven't looked at them in a longtime haha. I'm more picky with tarot and oracle decks but I have one or two I don't use often. But this was such a refreshing read because it's true; buying spiritual stuff doesn't make you spiritual. Just cuz you have mala beads or draw mandalas or smudge or have a crystal collection doesn't mean it will magically unfold for you…you gotta show up for the work! Great post 🙂

    1. Thank you!! 😀 The struggle is SO real, and books are one thing I'll probably keep buying forever because more knowledge is always good, haha! I just have to make sure I read the ones I have first D:

  2. Oh for the love of all that is holy, I swear I could have written this. Lol. I don't even want to tell you the amount I have spent on e-courses that I never finished and decks that just sit there collecting dust…..

    I feel you on this, so hard.

    1. It's so tough!! I always get sucked in by e-courses because they make it sound like if I just open the e-mails every day, some magic will happen and I'll instantly improve whatever aspect of my life… But I have to remember that those take work, too!! (And I probably don't actually have time for as many as I sign up for D: )

  3. While I haven't spent all that much on my stuff, I've gone home from Psychic Fairs longing for things like bells, drums, massive crystals, Fairy wings…. Ugh. Your blog helped me feel better, Dana. I'm not really missing out on anything. The few things I have serve me well. Keep writing girl! I really it enjoyed it. 🙂

  4. Re: books — you might try interlibrary loan at your public library–if they don't have the book you want there, they can get it from another library and lend it to you. Or you can always check out an e-book. I feel you on the deck lust…so hard to resist!

  5. I totally relate! Thanks for writing this. It’s easy to get caught up in desire but it’s so true, you really don’t need much and only about a quarter of the woo-woo stuff I impulse buy ends up being something I really truly use and connect with. Another way to look at it would be that you needed to make all the more erroneous purchases you did in order to discover what *wasn’t* your path, right? Thinking about it like that, it’s like you’re not even letting your WASTE go to waste! lol. At least I can tell myself that so I feel better 😉

    Thanks for the darling article!

    1. I like that way of looking at it, Kayleigh! And it means if I happen to buy a few MORE things to discover my path… well, that’s okay too, right? 😉

  6. Books? Pfft who buys them….. guilty. Crystals? No way! Oh pretty… ok maybe – Yes the Obsidian ball was a major purchase. Oracle cards… this is a new outing for me and I have one deck… though I do like the druid one on herbs and the one with…. Oh my latest purchase and it was a steal…. no I didn’t I paid for it. I found a beautiful little cauldron sitting in the corner of a second hand shop… I ‘felt’ it call to me before I saw it and just knew I had to have it… $12 Canadian! I saw someone on Pinterest try to sell one for $55! It came home with me, was duly cleansed and dedicated and then used at the last black moon… oh I love my little pot 🙂

  7. THIS. All of THIS. I was reading this article and laughing out loud because I see myself in so much of this! Great read. I especially resonated with the crystals. I am a crystal fiend.

    1. LOL, thank you Amy! I’m so glad you liked it! The struggle is so real, ESPECIALLY with crystals… it’s so easy to see one in a store and be like “well, it’s calling to me so I HAVE to buy it!” I hope you’re having a great day <3

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